Bucket List

Do you have your bucket list?

I have a lot of bucket list actually. For example, this year, my bucket list are:

1. Holiday to Thailand ✅
2. Loose 20kg
3. Buy Ipad / Iphone / Laptop / Sepeda Listrik
4. Plant Sunflower from seeds
5. Business Trip ✅
6. Save xx Million Rupiah

7. No debt

But only can checklist 2 of them, many to go. I have 3 months more. I hope all will be checked in this 31 December so I would be so proud of myself!

Make money

Is it possible to make 100k million next year? I think it would be my next bucket list. So I can use it to make business or other investing, so I can retire, and do a lot of things I want to do in this life, like travelling, helping people, and bring happiness to everyone. I don't want to get stuck here in the same company for more than 10 years. My next bucket list:

Do Love really exist?

Love exist because of mutual benefit between two people. Conclude it by yourself

Traumatic Moment

And again and again, i found him stalk on his ex crush. This is too painful. I dint want to talk, just need time to process all of my emotion. I want to dissapear. He doesnt care even if I am leaving.

Do I look weird if I like to work?

Well, I like working. I mean, I don't like the feeling of waking up early and push myself to take a bath, pack my bags, and prepare myself to go to the office. But when I arrived and get stressed because of my colleagues and I can handle issue and case well, I feel proud of myself. I feel that I am living my best life. I go home bring the feeling that I am satisfied with my life, I feel worthy, I feel that I am doing my best and I'm satisfied with it.

Well actually I have several plan this year but after evaluating, not all my plan works, but some of my list are checked. And I feel very proud of my self about it. I think I need to do more things like that, that are align with my goals. I like the feeling of achieving something. Let's go girl, get what you want!

Will Everything be fine?

Everything is fine rn. I feel that he love me very much and no one is between us right now. Not in his mind, not in my mind. Just two of us.

But, is there any guarantee that everything will be just fine? How if someday he hurt me. How if he likes another girl? How if we fight and he tired of me and leave me? How if life knock us down and destroy us? Will everything be fine?

Insecure

 I know, I'm not supposed to open her IG account again and again and again.

I just hurt myself by keep making comparison between me and her. It feels like we are competing.

It's hurt when you look down at yourself and feel..... not good enough

Idk what to say.....

Get irritated

Why do I get irritated easily when I know someone try to know about my plan. I just,,, don't like it

God’s Grace

Well, my closest friends already know the story and struggle behind this event. But I think I need to re-share my story to you, about His kindness to me✨ Semoga tmn tmn bisa terberkati. Here we go….

Aku sempet ada di fase down setelah mencoba beberapa hal tapi terus terusan gagal dan menemui jalan buntu. Aku sempet ngerasa stuck, sampai akhirnya menyadari bahwa hidup tidak bisa berjalan sesuai rencana kita sendiri.

Anehnya, akhirnya aku bisa ikhlas dan tetep ngerasa sukacita. Karena aku tahu dan percaya Dia adalah Bapa yang baik, yang akan menyediakan yang terbaik untuk anak anakNya.
Nggak lama, Tuhan buka jalan, Tuhan beri peluang. Aku diikutkan bosku event yang lumayan keren untuk rekan rekan yang kerja di dunia aviasi. Event ini adalah sebuah event networking dimana kita bisa bertemu dgn para profesional dari dunia aviasi. Aku melihat ini sebagai kesempatan belajar untuk aku bisa memperluas network, memperluas perspektif, dan berkesempatan untuk bekerjasama dengan para profesional dari berbagai negara.

Aku memberanikan diri untuk mengajukan izin, awalnya semua terlihat sulit, karena sejak pandemi tidak banyak orang boleh join event ini. Tapi walaupun kemungkinan di approvenya kecil, aku percaya kalau Tuhan izinkan, maka terjadilah sesuai kehendakNya. Yang menurut kita mustahil, mungkin terjadi bagi Tuhan. Gak disangka, semua lancar. Aku bisa menjelaskan ke atasanku kenapa aku ingin dan harus berangkat. Dan puji Tuhan, minggu lalu, aku bisa berangkat sbg representatif dr perusahaan, membawa setiap case dan plan yang harus dibahas.

Seneng banget! Aku percaya dalam setiap proses dan usahaku, Tuhan lihat dan Tuhan campur tangan. Aku nggak pernah sendiri (*berkaca kaca karena masih terharu 😅)

Mungkin buat orang lain, ini hanya pencapaian kecil. Tapi proses dan pembelajaran dibaliknya begitu berharga:
1. Aku belajar untuk menetralkan hati dan tidak menyalahkan Tuhan ketika aku gagal. Aku belajar menundukkan hati untuk percaya pada rencanaNya
2. Tidak ada usaha yang sia sia. Tuhan akan selalu memberkati anakNya yg gigih, terus berusaha dan berdoa.

Hope you like my story! Teruslah semangat dalam mencapai impianmu, terus libatkan Tuhan dalam rencanamu, percayalah rencanaNya luar biasa untuk hidupmu. God bless you all!