Jealousy kills you. But sometimes it could lift you up. Insecurity helps you to survive, when you feel threatened.
Thank you to jealousy, because of that, I did my best live this year. Without jealousy, I will not go for vacation to Thai, Lombok, and force myself to go for business trip to Singapore. Because of heartbreak I push myself to become my best version, do diet, push my limit by trying to do new things like being MC for my division. But however, God choose me to become a leader too this year. What a year. Very thankful for every opportunity.
But still, jealousy makes me feel anger inside my heart. I hate to know the fact that my partner still look at her many times, try to know her many times. I hate to know that he make an effort to edit a photo about them, that he was likes her very much. And after everything I did, every sacrifices that I did, I will never good enough for him. Until he unfollowed her social media, and fully forget about her, I will never stop comparing myself to her.
This is bad, but good as well. Good for my achievement, bad for my mental health 😋
